I have escaped for a while to come to gossip and pass a council request to the council of wise xD.
As many know I went to work for 3 or more weeks ... all going well, until "apparently" my head I fell in love xD (god, it's me or it sounds like erotic free entry? xD)
Well, first I must clarify a mounted n things before advice.
say "apparently" (so, in quotes) because honestly I fell in love with him, so much so that I can say that there are other men who SI CHTMLor for me because I tend to fill awkward moments with laughter xD)
- Hobbies shared? To my knowledge no. He is chef and as I said is older than me and some things we've been talking I realized that more than we like quite different hobbies, but that does not matter.
Anyway, all this is because today Ely asked me out I agreed. Assumes that when you move you accept an appointment, feel happy and nervous and fantasize, right? Well yes, I'm nervous, excited and I'm not happy. And I fantasize about leaving it an important issue and cancel our appointment, in a nutshell: CHTMWTF LXC with me?
all started for him, certainly, because in addition to all is a blatant xD. I looked far and I was still working good sonreíay him but after a while I needed
of those looks. Try to explain it because even I know what I mean: physically
He dared me, I find it interesting and enjoyable but I imagine with great potential to fall in love. That was clear at the beginning and I think it is clear in my mind, also remember that it is my boss. But with the passage of time those looks and smiles made me feel so flattered that he needed to look at meI wanted to do it and honestly I was having so much as he flirted. I'm not very good for love, rather I'm clumsy, but those eyes made me feel good about myself, even sexy (and say that really bothers me when people look at me when I go down the street or not I know, eh).
Then my mother (who works there tb) and her mother started joking about us. For months they met did. His mother said she liked me to be his daughter but in that time he had a girlfriend (and measured as two meters and I just as well ¬ ¬ mido 1.70s he did not attract me at all). Now he is single, of course, and my mother and her mother (who does this sound ugly) are unscrewed. Prank calls Consuegra, if I say that very nearly are saying how are your grandchildren, I'm not exaggerating. All at work in a discreet joke but they ... seem to love the idea of relational.
Well, that really bothers me. I like the joke was funny when I did not feel anything for him because I thought "if ... as if some day I could look for on someone like him "
but now there is something, a something
becauseand really do not know what the hell is that makes me feel uncomfortable (and say yes to the appointments, fuck
)
The point is that I need advice f-list and there are several points clear here: to feel something for him I'm sorry, I do not know what it is, just know that is not love or even physical attraction, it might even be grateful that everyone has been VERY nice to me since I started working and
I am very excited to know that I have an appointment with him. My mother and some friends insist that I get carried away, thatperhaps not as bad as it looks or things like that, and I really want to, but do not know how. I racked his brains thinking maybe this was a mistake, if for some reason something bad comes out everything will go down the drain (ie I'm out of work [which I do not care because is the job of my dreams, the truth], they'll think I'm a bitch and even my mother could have problems), tb I think it was too fast. I already knew from prior work there, only he teníaa his girlfriend "long" and did not pay much attention at the time ... CHTMLX
CY that's another huge problem. With his former partner, apparently he lived a somewhat tortuous relationship. She was both hated (his mother hated her and all say that now that everything has been improved a lot) she brought many problems affecting Carlos (name for it). The point is, just leave a bad relationship and apparently has changed dramatically from the simple fact that before him as the Chef does not stoop to prepare anything at all (not placed orders , no good water to demásy was strictly forbidden to drink from a cup or take a spoon that had been used by anyoneiera staff of the girls) and now today I prepared a capucchino ended taking his sister and that was special xD. I mean, has not changed for me, that was from before when his crazy girlfriend left him (or he left, I'm not sure ... will have to find out), but has changed a lot to me have said. This will not want to hurt him, what if in the end I realize that everything I liked about him was that made me feel wanted because my hormones are unleashed and even the slightest wind makes me? I'm not sure of my feelings or my thoughts. It's kind of
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